Wow! The twins are 10 months old today. I was thinking about how much they have grown in that time and, just as important, how much I have grown in that time. I can NOT believe how much our lives have changed! At this point, it's so hard to remember what life was like before the twins. I must have had oodles of time to do things.
In 10 months, I've learned that I am capable of so many more things that I originally thought. I've impressed and surprised myself on numerous occasions.
I've learned that my priorities have changed almost instantly, as did my goals.
I've learned that, even if I had a million years to spend with the twins, I'd never be able to tell them everything that I want to. So, I've decided that making sure I tell them "I love you" each day will have to be enough.
I've learned that when parents say they don't have a favorite, they are being honest. I love Jackson and Addison the same amount, just differently at times (I asked Eric is he had a favorite. He said, "Yes. Whatever kid sleeps through the night.")
I've learned that even the best laid plans don't mean a thing when you have kids.
I've learned that Grandmas are amazing people and the importance of family.
I've learned that all relationships take work and even when you want to walk away, it's definitely worth it to stay and fight for it.
I've learned that being a mom is the most indescribable thing in the world.
Monday, January 28, 2008
Addison is the best medicine
So, today I was really sick....really sick. I left work and didn't think I was going to make it home kind of sick. When I got home, I washed my hands several times and tried not to get everyone else sick...but they already were.
Anyway, after we fed the twins and were having family time (after we give them a bottle around 7, it's family cuddle time) Addison, who usually falls asleep instantly, turned to face me and put her nose right up against my nose and started to giggle. It was so cute! She made me smile and laugh and remember that this is what life is all about!
....that was, of course, after Jackson held her down and bit her face....she has bite marks to prove it....you win some, you lose some....
Anyway, after we fed the twins and were having family time (after we give them a bottle around 7, it's family cuddle time) Addison, who usually falls asleep instantly, turned to face me and put her nose right up against my nose and started to giggle. It was so cute! She made me smile and laugh and remember that this is what life is all about!
....that was, of course, after Jackson held her down and bit her face....she has bite marks to prove it....you win some, you lose some....
Friday, January 25, 2008
Stockings
Grandma Lois makes stockings for each new member of the family. This year, she had to make two; one for Jackson and one for Addison. She worked really hard on them and each of them are symbolic. Jackson's has a baseball bat for PapaBear and a football and a jersey with Eric's old football number.
Addison has a Swedish crown (I can't think of the name of it...don't hate me Lois) for part of her ancestry, a handful of flowers to remind her of her Grandma Lois and a pair of red shoes, because Grandma Lois said, "Every girl needs a pair of red shoes." And Grandma Lois said there is a mistake in Addison's stocking and that's OK because nobody is perfect.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Christmas photo
Here are the Miller great-grandchildren (on couch from left to right): Selena, Jackson, Juliana, Kyla, KatieBell, Naydene, Hope. On the floor...oh golly. I can't tell Trevor and Tyler apart, but it's the two of them with Addison in the middle.
Chicago
OK...it has been FOR EVER since I've updated the blog...I don't even know where to begin...so much has happened.....each day is like a whole new world where the twins learn new things. They aren't the same kids that they were two weeks ago. It's truly amazing how much learning humans do in that first year! Kind of makes you HOPE you don't mess them up too badly....
Last Saturday, when the actual temp was somewhere around negative 10 degrees, we took the twins to the Mall of America for a diabetes walk. It was pretty amazing to see all of those people there, all walking for a cure...or in the twins' case, strolling for a cure. Team Zajkowski had 20 members! It was wonderful. I felt so empowered. I know there is going to be a cure in my lifetime and hopefully, Jackson and Addison won't even know I had to deal with this crazy nonesense!
I'm in Chicago right now for a sales compensation class. I miss the twins terribly!!! I'm going to be away until Friday. My stomach is all upset and I'm sure it's because I'm missing part of me. I actually shed real tears when I left them on Tuesday. They won't even know I'm gone, but I will.
Eric has the help of both grandmas, so he'll be good. Even if he was alone with them, as he is everyday, he'd be good. I'm the one who is suffering and, strangely enough, I feel guilty...wasn't prepared for that emotion!!! I didn't sleep well last night. Hopefully tonight is better.
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I am going to rat myself out here, but I have to share. I often tell Eric that he can update the blog too, but he never does. Well, a few weeks ago, I was on the computer at home and I saw a file called "Daddy's journal." I opened it. And it was a journal that Eric is keeping, written to the twins about them growing up. It made me cry. I was so moved by it. I had no idea he felt the way he wrote about some things. It just made me love him even more.
That's all for now. I'm going to try to post a picture of all 10 Miller great-grandchildren that my mom sent to me. It was from Christmas....but she just got it to me....new camera...she didn't know how to use it...I'm just proud of her for figuring it out!
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On MLK Jr. day, I was thinking about where I was a year ago. I was giving a speech...very pregnant, and I was so out of breath, Eric was worried that I wouldn't be able to get through it. I remember referencing the twins, in a very abstract way....I didn't know who they were going to be yet. Now, since they are real humans, the importance of the Civil Rights movement, justice and fighting for what's right now so future generations are "better," means more to me than ever.
Here's to wonderful todays, and even more wonderful tomorrows!
Last Saturday, when the actual temp was somewhere around negative 10 degrees, we took the twins to the Mall of America for a diabetes walk. It was pretty amazing to see all of those people there, all walking for a cure...or in the twins' case, strolling for a cure. Team Zajkowski had 20 members! It was wonderful. I felt so empowered. I know there is going to be a cure in my lifetime and hopefully, Jackson and Addison won't even know I had to deal with this crazy nonesense!
I'm in Chicago right now for a sales compensation class. I miss the twins terribly!!! I'm going to be away until Friday. My stomach is all upset and I'm sure it's because I'm missing part of me. I actually shed real tears when I left them on Tuesday. They won't even know I'm gone, but I will.
Eric has the help of both grandmas, so he'll be good. Even if he was alone with them, as he is everyday, he'd be good. I'm the one who is suffering and, strangely enough, I feel guilty...wasn't prepared for that emotion!!! I didn't sleep well last night. Hopefully tonight is better.
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I am going to rat myself out here, but I have to share. I often tell Eric that he can update the blog too, but he never does. Well, a few weeks ago, I was on the computer at home and I saw a file called "Daddy's journal." I opened it. And it was a journal that Eric is keeping, written to the twins about them growing up. It made me cry. I was so moved by it. I had no idea he felt the way he wrote about some things. It just made me love him even more.
That's all for now. I'm going to try to post a picture of all 10 Miller great-grandchildren that my mom sent to me. It was from Christmas....but she just got it to me....new camera...she didn't know how to use it...I'm just proud of her for figuring it out!
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On MLK Jr. day, I was thinking about where I was a year ago. I was giving a speech...very pregnant, and I was so out of breath, Eric was worried that I wouldn't be able to get through it. I remember referencing the twins, in a very abstract way....I didn't know who they were going to be yet. Now, since they are real humans, the importance of the Civil Rights movement, justice and fighting for what's right now so future generations are "better," means more to me than ever.
Here's to wonderful todays, and even more wonderful tomorrows!
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
9-month Update
The twins had their 9-month well-baby visit last week….and how ironic, since they were both sick!
Jackson is in the 25th percentile for both height and weight (21 pounds, 27.5 inches). Addison is in the 90th percentile for height and weight (21 pounds, 12 oz, 28 inches).
They both got blood drawn and Jackson was successfully distracted by the dancing plant that the lab technician had. He didn’t even notice the needle pricking him. Addison, on the other hand, screamed so dramatically the moment the needle was exposed! Eric and I flipped for who got who during the blood draw. Clearly I lost!
Jackson is in the 25th percentile for both height and weight (21 pounds, 27.5 inches). Addison is in the 90th percentile for height and weight (21 pounds, 12 oz, 28 inches).
They both got blood drawn and Jackson was successfully distracted by the dancing plant that the lab technician had. He didn’t even notice the needle pricking him. Addison, on the other hand, screamed so dramatically the moment the needle was exposed! Eric and I flipped for who got who during the blood draw. Clearly I lost!
Happy New Year
Happy New Year! It’s been so long….I’ve missed the whole holiday season and it was quite wonderful! The twins were troopers as we lugged them from celebration to celebration. On Christmas Eve, they were among 10 Miller great grand children and another set of twins. It was wonderfully wild! Eric and I realized that AddiLo and Jackson could have been given wrapping paper wrapped in wrapping paper and that would have made them quite happy! All the toys they got…so what! They weren’t into their gifts….mostly. AddiLo did fall in love with her Glow Worm. It’s strange, you can never predict what they’ll like.
We spent several hours on New Year’s Day with Jackson at the emergency room. He was given three nebulizer treatments and they sent us home with a nebulizer and steroids and antibiotics. They never told us conclusively what he has, but there’s nothing you can do for most if it anyway. So that was stressful.
Both kids slept through the night last night!!!!! That was HUGE! One of them has been sick, it seems, since Thanksgiving, so I hope this is a sign that they are both well again!
Jackson is crawling like a maniac and just today, he climbed up three steps for daddy!!! And AddiLo is starting to crawl now too. They are so fun.
They’ve both learned to stand up in their cribs, which they do each night when we put them to bed. They talk to each other for an hour or so and then, eventually fall asleep. Jackson is biting his crib now. The first night he did it, he gave himself a bloody lip and was so thrilled with himself! Too funny!
We spent several hours on New Year’s Day with Jackson at the emergency room. He was given three nebulizer treatments and they sent us home with a nebulizer and steroids and antibiotics. They never told us conclusively what he has, but there’s nothing you can do for most if it anyway. So that was stressful.
Both kids slept through the night last night!!!!! That was HUGE! One of them has been sick, it seems, since Thanksgiving, so I hope this is a sign that they are both well again!
Jackson is crawling like a maniac and just today, he climbed up three steps for daddy!!! And AddiLo is starting to crawl now too. They are so fun.
They’ve both learned to stand up in their cribs, which they do each night when we put them to bed. They talk to each other for an hour or so and then, eventually fall asleep. Jackson is biting his crib now. The first night he did it, he gave himself a bloody lip and was so thrilled with himself! Too funny!
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