Secret Society

So, my friend Lynnea sent me pictures of herself yesterday. She's pregnant, due in July and she looks so happy.
I enjoy seeing happy pregnant woman, even though I was NOT one of them.
It's weird.
It's like I was part of the club, but not really, like I was given a partial membership....I still see happy pregnant women and wonder what is their secret. I mean, why didn't I get full membership??!?! I went through everything they did....twice over, and they still didn't give me the secret handshake or the key to the clubhouse. It's frustrating!

Smiling Faces

This weekend was jammed packed for the twins. It was their first trip to a garage sale, their first trip to Rockford, their first trip to the beach, their first trip to a parade and the first picture on the blog of both of them smiling! Rachel Yakesh is magic, just like Janel, because she got them both to smile!
We went to the beach with Grammona, Kyla and Juliana. Eric got into the water with Jackson who seemed to be having a ball!
I was so nervous the entire time because I kept thinking they were going to get sick because of germs. I was such a "new mom." And both Eric and Grammona were joking at me (not with me) about it, which didn't help. Addison did NOT enjoy the water. She was much happier sitting on Grammona's lap in her adorable sun hat.
We took them to the Gay Pride Parade on Sunday and they slept through the whole thing, until the very end when a fire truck came by and blasted its horn right in front of us! Jackson started to scream!! Addison barely opened her eyes....just enough to reposition herself and fall back to sleep.

What to expect....

O.K....I KEEP getting daily email updates from What to Expect When You're Expecting. I've tried to send them to my spam folder, but it ain't workin'.
And let me tell you....I don't know who these women are that write these little nuggets of misinformation, but nothing that I expected to happen, did! I totally feel tricked by the little, soothing emails I used to read. They gave me a false sense of hope that mothering was a breeze!!!! Granted, none of the emails applied to twins, but they still made it all seem pretty darn rosy to me!
But...I guess to some women, it really is that rosy. I guess I've had rosy days, but I have come to the realization that it's O.K. to admit that it's not easy. I'm no superwoman and I can admit that....
I do remember the look on a woman's face when she asked me if I just loved being a mom and I said to her, "Some days. But it's a ton of work." She looked at me with disappointment and told me not to be so honest......funny, huh?

Guinness the genius

Eric and I always ask each other questions about the babies...from, "Should we give them 5 ounces this feeding?" to, "Is it OK if Jackson didn't poop today?" to, "Should we sterilize the bottle nipples or is washing them just fine?" Neither of us know the answe rto any of them.
But we found a solution: ask Guinness!!!
So we're deferring to Guinness now. Instead of snapping at each other with "How the heck would I know!", we just say, "Mmm, I don't know. Good question. Guinness?"
And that seems to lighten the mood.

Smile

Last week...or maybe the week before, Jackson started to smile! I had NO idea that this little, 11 pound person, could make my heart melt with a little grin! And, in that little grin, all the stress and anger I was feeling at the moment just simply disappeared and the world seemed so pure. And I never thought I would act like a crazy person to try to get him to do it again and again and again! It's the coolest thing ever!!!

Pictures from Easter

These photos are old now...from Easter. but I just found them and they are too cute not to post!
Uncle Shane holding Jackson
A very happy Juliana holding Jackson
Juliana holding Addison
All of Grammona and Papa Bear's grandchildren

First Sunday in Church

This was the twins first Sunday in church. Wilma is holding Jackson and Carolyn is holding Addison.

Grandparents

Grammona holding the twins in the first photo and Papa Bear and Grammona holding the twins at cousin Paul's house during Memorial Day weekend in the second....I love this photo (I can't figure out why they are so blurry).